Friday, March 2, 2012

The Hug that Heals

"Muscular energy heals." ~Niki Schemmel, friend, mom, amazing local yoga instructor

Niki said this the other day when I asked her advice about a student of mine. Sometimes, words-- even those casually thrown out there-- have a way of burrowing into my very consciousness. I'm coming to realize that the things/events/themes/situations that pluck my strings, come up frequently, or cause a shift in my perception are the ones the most worthy of examination. So when these words plucked a particular thread for me, I realized this was the summation of an experience I had recently.

I spent weekend before last in Houston, where I attended the Texas Yoga Conference along with several friends (Jeanie, Melissa, Tami, Chrys) I hadn't seen in a long time. I made lots of new friends, one of whom, Jennifer, a yoga teacher trained by Anusara instructors in Houston, was kind enough to put me up in her beautiful home for the 5 days I was there along with several other awesome yoga chicks. At one point she made the statement, "I love to give hugs... I'm a hugger." (She does give fantastic hugs... and even wore a t-shirt that said "FREE HUGS.") Turns out she is a fantastic Acro-Yoga base as well! She is the very definition of love and support and kindness.

I think we often can let ourselves be put off by what we initially see in others... or in situations... and undoubtedly, that can block our growth. I know that there's a part of me that feels threatened by boldness in others. It's like there is a built-in laser beam that hones right in on these qualities and initially, I may shy away from connection because of it. But with Jenn, her realness, intelligence and wit, so sharp indeed that I might otherwise have been put off, immediately gave way to her warm and radiant smile that just drew me in. And then, I was lucky enough to get to learn what an incredible story she has and how almost maddening personal challenges gave birth to this beautiful, amazing soul who gives and gives and gives. She is the very essence of the lotus, opening to beauty from the muddy water.

Her actual story itself, here, doesn't matter (plus it's not mine to tell anyway)... The lesson here is what has stayed with me... This idea that when we allow our defenses to soften, our hard outer edges to relax, we become open to so much beauty.

John Friend has had a rough go of it lately, and I don't mean to opine on his recent legal and moral situation in this post... but the one thing I do want to bring up was this quote, from his workshop in Pennsylvania in November 2010: "If I had only one thing to teach you, one thing to leave with you this weekend, it would be this: Soften the limiting ideas you have about yourself. Open your heart to something more. You are worthy of living this day fully."

I learned a lot about myself that weekend... that I actually love therapeutic basing and flying, Thai massage, and teachers that do seemingly crazy things (putting me up on your feet for a long flight right before the Sean Johnson workshop? thanks Mateo! holding us in Frog for the entire length of Whitney Houston's "I Will Always Love You"? thanks Les! moving from Lunge to Eagle to a "made it up when I was in the shower" pose called OMG to Bird of Paradise? thanks Dana!)

Even if that's not necessarily the teacher I am... I can so appreciate it. It's a little like a vacation from being me for a while, getting out of my own super-grounded, often heavy ways so I can float around for awhile. I can embrace being "whatever" for a while because I know who I am. And maybe, little bits of what I experience will begin to shift and change me, in the most amazing ways.

My weekend in Houston was an exercise in Muscular Energy. Pulling in from all that's around me, drawing it in, to strengthen, lift, bloom, become... heal.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Vishuddha

"Vishuddha

Sound, Creative identity, oriented to self-expression

This is the chakra located in the throat and is thus related to communication and creativity. Here we experience the world symbolically through vibration, such as the vibration of sound representing language." ~ Anodea Judith


Today represented a milestone of a day for me. Since, oh, 1998 or 1999 I have dreamed of playing the harmonium-- that portable combination accordion/organ used in Kirtan, devotional chanting and mantra. There's something so amazing about the sound of a harmonium-- hearing it alone immediately opens my heart. And even just chanting Om along to a couple of well-placed chords becomes a transformative experience that turns my day around.

Since I received my harmonium on December 1 from Kristin Brooks of the Bhakti House Band, I have played sometimes for two or three hours a day, not actively trying to learn chords or tunes but just delighting in the sound I'm able to make with it-- and how resonant the vocals are on top of it. It's so powerful to me, the sounds reverberate in my mind and in my throat long after I am done actually playing and singing.

There is the feeling that this is a new way of being, and at the age of 38, finding those moments is pretty special to me. There was probably a time in my life when I thought I had seen it all. I'll save my story for another time, but suffice it to say that this year has represented a beautiful shift for me-- from the unreal to the real, the safety of the known to the juicy mystery of the unknown, the darkness to the light. I've been stunned and touched by my students, most recently the ones who allowed me to share my new love of the harmonium with them today. I'll say that the experience of teaching has shifted for me in a big way this year. It's not always been easy-- goodness knows I've found more ways than I care to admit that I have made everything about me-- but there is now a release of all that, a willingness to live in service of something greater, even though I am not sure at this moment what exactly that "something greater" is. In any case, 2012 promises to be more of the same awakening, unfolding, revealing... and I am ready for it, here, now, receptive.


asato ma sad gamaya
tamaso ma jyotir gamaya
mrutyor ma amritam gamaya


From ignorance lead me to truth
From darkness lead me to light
From death lead me to immortality


Brhadaranyaka Upanisad, I.iii.28



Namaste.

I bow to the light that shines within.

Om shanti.

Infinite peace be with you.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Winter Schedule

It's been a while since my last post... time has been at a premium lately as my efforts have been joyfully given to Project Yoga Richmond, a cause with which I am truly grateful to be aligned (check us out!)...

With PYR we're working toward our mission to make yoga accessible to everyone. In 2012 we're expanding our offerings in the community as well as evolving our fee structure to mainly a donation-based system. This is the realization of a dream of mine for sure. I'm so unbelievably lucky to have great alliances and friendships with my team-- J, Michelle, Pam, Wendy, Liz, Natalie, Stacy, Cate, Jenna, Kalyani, Carolyn, Sandy, Amanda, Madeline, and Renee-- as well as countless others who have donated their time and money and energy. There's some great things in the works for PYR including teacher trainings, Acro and Hoop Jams, outdoor classes at parks and museums, and so much community service our impact will be felt far and wide. That's my intention for the coming year for 2012 and now it's just about aligning with that intention.

In the meantime, while I am still teaching a lot of private lessons, here's where you can catch me for group classes (I am keeping my schedule light for a while in order to give myself lots of time to align :) :

Mondays 5-6 pm at Om On Yoga (320 Libbie Ave) for Gentle
Mondays 6:30-7:45 pm at PYR (6517 Dickens Place) for Yin/Yang Yoga

Tuesdays 6:30-7:30 am at Om On Yoga for Sunrise Vinyasa
Tuesdays 12-1 pm at Om On Yoga for Slow Flow

Here are other classes at PYR that I wholeheartedly recommend (check the schedule for more events, for details, and to make sure nothing's cancelled due to events and workshops):

Tuesdays 6:45-8 pm Hatha Beginner/Intermediate with Cate

Wednesdays 6:30 and 7:30 pm Hoop Dance with Natalie

Thursdays 6:30-7:45 pm Community Yoga with J

Thursdays 6:45-8 pm Hatha for Beginners with Cate

Fridays 5:30-6:30 pm Energetic Flow with Jo

Sundays 4-5 pm Pay What You Can Gentle Yoga (taught by various instructors on a rotating basis)

Monday, October 24, 2011

Fall Food Frenzy

After about October 15, all my determination to cling vainly to summer begins to evaporate. By that time we're venturing into 40 degree weather at night and the humidity comes and goes intermittently until the air outside resembles the taste and texture of a Honeycrisp apple. Sharp, sweet and tangy. (?)

Anyway, I start doing the same strange things everyone else who nests a home probably does: buying pansies and chrysanthemums and decorative gourds (click that link only if you have a strong stomach for the f-word and a taste for the hilarious!) to put on my front porch.

Food-wise the purchasing shifts from cucumbers and watermelon to butternut and acorn squash, cauliflower for soup and mashing, and bread. Sometimes, when I have a craving for a certain ingredient but have no idea how to use it in an interesting way I will visit my favorite vegetarian website for fresh ideas.

I don't eat a lot of bread at all, because the remnants of the Adkins Diet debacle in the early 2000's are still hanging around in my consciousness... BUT being that I am much less restrictive these days (unless you count the whole vegetarian thing, of course) I like to eat it from time to time and especially during the Fall and Winter months. I can always put on a big sweater, right?

When I do buy bread I try to buy whole grain bread with a good chunky texture and a nice crust on it. If it has nuts or seeds or chunks of whole roasted garlic, even better. However, I usually am so sparing with it that I end up with essentially a big lava rock with a flat edge on my counter in a plastic bag. What to do?

Feeding the sweet wild birds in my yard is one option of course and sometimes I do that. Last night though, I got this overwhelming craving for stuffing. So I went in the kitchen and rattled off the ingredients one typically finds in stuffing. Bread, onions, celery, sage, parsley, celery seed, broth, olive oil or butter, salt and pepper and boxed vegetable broth. I also had some walnuts and dried cranberries, so I was good to go! I added some carrots that were hanging out getting ready to go limp. I got the husband into the preparation which was fun and made it go by really quickly.

Here's the breakdown for last night's Fall Cranberry Walnut Stuffing (of course you can play with the measurements as these are just by memory and the recipe made enough for 2-3 meals for two):

3/4 loaf stale whole wheat artisan bread
1 skinny carrot, peeled and diced into small pieces
2 celery ribs, diced into small pieces
1/2 medium red onion, diced into small pieces
3/4 tsp sage
3/4 tsp dried parsley
2 pinches celery seed
3-4 twists Himalayan pink salt (or sea salt is fine, of course)
3-4 twists black pepper
sprinkle of olive oil
2 tbsp Earth Balance Organic Buttery Spread
3/4 cup Imagine Foods Organic No-Chicken Broth
1/2 cup chopped walnuts
1/2 cup dried cranberries

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Spray or oil a medium sized baking dish.

Chop all the bread into about 1/2 inch cubes and set aside.
Put all diced vegetables with the spices, olive oil, 'butter,' and broth into a medium sauce pan and simmer until the veggies get slightly soft and everything blends well.

Right before baking, add the bread cubes a little at a time, tossing thoroughly so they are coated with seasonings and well blended with the vegetables. Then add the walnuts and cranberries. Spread it all out in the baking dish. Make sure the mixture is a little damp (not saturated) by adding a little more broth anywhere it looks too dry.

Bake for about 30-ish minutes uncovered. I like a slightly crusty top so I moved it up under the broiler turned on low for about 2 minutes right at the end.

I served it with my curried butternut squash-coconut soup (thanks Fresca restaurant for the inspiration-- I went home and copied your recipe as best I could and it's so perfect and easy, I keep coming back to it!):

I had a half a medium sized squash already baked (cut in half, seeds scooped out, 45 min at about 375 degrees, open face down in a baking dish with 1/2 inch water and covered in foil) so all I had to do was scoop it out and puree with about 3/4 can light organic coconut milk, a little more broth, and a little of the following spices: cayenne, curry, allspice, salt, pepper. Then I allowed it to simmer a bit so it would all blend well.

The combination of the two dishes together was awesome! The creamy-spicy-sweetness of the soup with the crusty bread and slightly crunchy fresh veggies and walnuts were a lovely combination. It's all I can do now not to go buy silly things like cornucopias and more decorative gourds for my dinner table. I'll leave that to the more Martha Stewart-ish of my friends :)

Enjoy and let me know if you vary the recipe and how it turns out!

Monday, August 1, 2011

This week's class schedule Aug 1-7

Hello friends!

Here is where to catch me this week for publicly available classes.

Monday
5:00 pm Gentle Yoga at Om On Yoga, 320 Libbie Ave
6:30 pm Restorative Yoga at Project Yoga Richmond, 6517 Dickens Place

Tuesday
6:30 am Sunrise Vinyasa Yoga at Om On Yoga
12:00 noon Slow Flow Yoga at Om On Yoga

Wednesday
10:00 am Free/Donation based Yoga In Monroe Park (on VCU Campus) (co-taught with Liz Sussan)

Thursday
6:30 am Sunrise Vinyasa Yoga at Om On Yoga

Can't wait to see you on the mat.

"I catch a glimpse of such peace when I can allow my body and my postures to be imperfect, when I can simply let things be as they are. In class I remind students that swimmers who fight against the water tire and drown. Those who relax into it float... On our mats we learn to float." ~Rolf Gates, Day 213, Meditations From the Mat





Sunday, June 12, 2011

Inside- Out



"I have lived on the lip of insanity, wanting to know reasons, knocking on a door. It opens. I've been knocking from the inside!"

The above quote from Jalal ad-Din Rumi, 13th century Sufi mystic and poet.

This month, so far (and it's not half over!) has represented a shift in the way I see myself. If you'll allow me a moment to indulge...

On June 3-4, I and my fellow Rolf Gates 500 hour graduating class presented on Fundamentals of Vinyasa Flow practice at Blending the Rhythms: Inspiration and Flow, a two-day asana, meditation and kirtan event in Virginia Beach benefitting Wounded Warrior Project. Our goal was $10,000... after expenses, that's almost exactly what we raised!

Friday night I presented a piece on Mountain Pose alignment. Here's what I presented:

Yoga practice, when practiced with right effort and in full integration, can begin to correct and align imbalances physically, in the muscles and connective tissues of the body, as well as awaken the energies of the body that might have lay dormant. Feeling aligned energetically may give us an immediate connection to our truth.


We may feel more at ease; we feel both grounded, stable, secure, but also comfortable enough in our own bodies to soften and open to the possibilities that each day brings us, with steadiness, with comfort and with joy. Right alignment/right effort creates ease in a posture, just as right action/right effort creates ease in life off the mat.


Let’s focus on balanced action as we move into Tadasana, or Mountain Pose. I’ll be highlighting the corresponding energy centers (or “chakras”) as we move up the body in order to awaken our awareness of how the body and its energy work together. For additional reading on the subject I recommend works by Caroline Myss and Anodea Judith.


Begin by standing at the front of your mat with your arms at your sides.


Feet: Feel your feet. Press down on the inner and outer edges of your feet as if you were spreading X’s on the soles of the feet. Feel the places that your feet connect to the mat, the floor beneath that, and the earth beneath that. Steadily lift the arches of your feet. As you do, feel the entire leg engage-- the shins, calves, thighs, backs of the legs. Keep a small bend in your knees to soften the knee joint and engage the muscles supporting the knee. Press the inner thighs back.


Hips: As you lift the arches of your feet and engage the legs, slightly lift the front of your hips. Allow the tailbone to drop, but create balanced action in the pelvis by continuing to press the inner thighs back. Feel the stability in your low body. Feel anchored, rooted and balanced.


The feet, the legs and the base of the spine correspond with the first, or Muladhara chakra. In this energy center lie our basic connections to the earth beneath us, to the groups or “tribes” with which we identify ourselves. A healthy, balanced root chakra means that we can stand firm; that we feel like we belong, like we are in the right place.


The hips and lower abdominal organs correspond with the second, or Swadisthana chakra. In this center lie our relationships to people, and to elements of our immediate environment: food, money, partnerships, work, and anything we create in our lives. A healthy, balanced second chakra indicates healthy, balanced relationships to these areas; that we are creative, that we interact respecfully, that we are good partners.


Belly: Place your hands on your belly just below the spot where the right and left ribs meet at the center. This is the solar plexus chakra, the Manipura chakra. In this center lie those aspects of ourselves that we define as truly “us”: our wants, needs, inclinations, personality traits, goals, intentions and our will power. A healthy, balanced third chakra means knowing who we are and what we want to accomplish; and that we have the will to accomplish it. Draw the belly in slightly and lift the belly up toward the ribs. Feel a slight heat build in this area. Keep this, and release your arms by your sides.


Heart, shoulders and arms: The fourth or heart chakra, Anahata, represents our capacity to feel and experience emotions. It has a special element: air. It is into and out of this heart center that our breath flows. A healthy, balanced fourth chakra indicates that we are willing to feel and experience all the emotions that come up-- not just the so called “good” emotions like love, gratitude, forgiveness, and joy, but also the tricky and often problematic emotions like envy, anger, shame and guilt-- and to manage them in a way that brings us and others ease. Please lift the shoulders and roll them down the back, allowing the lower tips of the shoulder blades to move together behind your heart space. Elongate the side ribs. Roll your palms forward and gently spread the fingers. Feel the heart lift and open. Breathe deeply. Balance the opening of the heart by drawing in the low ribs, engaging the solar plexus as the ribs move toward the hips and the navel softly pulls in and up. Marrying the third and fourth chakras in this way is an indication of our will to experience and endure bravely and honestly all that might come our way, no matter how it may make us feel.


Throat: The fifth or throat chakra, Vishuddha , represents our ability to express ourselves, but also to allow others to express themselves. To engage the throat chakra, bring your attention to the back of the throat. Draw the jawline back slightly and lift the muscles at the back of the throat. You will feel a slight constriction of the breath. This is also how we engage Ujjayi or Victorious Breath which we frequently use in our practice. Hope will explain this further in a little while as we begin our asana practice. Another way to engage and balance the throat chakra is to make some noise. So let’s inhale, open our mouths, nice and wide, and exhale loudly, filling the room: AAHHHHH! Let’s repeat twice more. Close the mouth; notice how you feel. Listen for a moment to the subtle sounds of others breathing around you. A healthy, balanced throat chakra means you are able to speak your truth, but also to allow others to speak theirs.


Brow: The sixth or brow chakra, Ajna, represents our vision, not just the ability to see physically, but to connect to our intuition and to follow it when appropriate. For example, what intuition told you to register for this weekend? How did you envision the experience? If you are able, close your eyes; or, just drop the lids slightly and gaze out over the bridge of your nose. What images or thoughts come to mind? Open the eyes again. When the eyes are open in asana, it’s important to establish a steady gaze point during our practice, which helps us focus on our mats. We are then able to move in the direction of our vision and remain steadfast in practice. Learning to trust your own intuition and follow your vision, as one of my fellow graduates, Amy Perri, so beautifully stated, is to be inspired to live in spirit, your spirit, allowing yourself to be guided from the inside out and to trust enough to take action in the direction of where you are being led. Which leads us to the final point of focus: The seventh or crown chakra, the Sahasrara.


Crown: Lift and extend the spine by bringing the crown of the head up slightly, as if you are growing an inch taller. The crown represents the ability to connect to spirit that is both of ourselves and much, much larger than ourselves. What we find though, is that when we are in balance in the other chakras, when our relationships to others, to ourselves, to our emotions, our words, and our ideas are all in balance it’s so much easier to feel connected, supported, a part of something greater; to feel gratitude; to have faith; and above all, to live our lives for the greater good. Yoga gives us the means for balancing our bodies and our energies so that we can live skillfully in this world, fulfilling our dharma, or our duty, in this lifetime.


Feel and breathe into right alignment. Mountain pose appears in some way at every moment in our practice, so let’s create an intention to find this alignment again and again. Feel balanced, steady and comfortable; the body is challenged physically, but open and relaxed energetically.


Following a presentation on working together in Tree Pose, our asana practice started, and I led centering and warmups ending in Sun Salutations.


Our group presented to 100 people (including Rolf and all our fellow teacher trainees). Just prior to our presentation, out in the hallway, I asked John Yax, co-owner of Hot House Yoga who so graciously hosted our program these past 16 months, to give us some encouraging, relaxing words. He looked me square in the eye, and said, "It's not about you. It's about what you can do for them. Don't be selfish; remember that." This hit me really hard. What a simple concept that completely takes the pressure off!


This weekend there were two events that I was so lucky to be able to share: Project Yoga Richmond's free community class yesterday at the Virginia Museum of Fine Arts, and my free class at lululemon athletica Short Pump today. I just kept reminding myself of John's words: It's not about you. It's about... them.


Honestly, there was a time not too long ago when the mere thought of teaching a group of this size would probably have made me pee in my pants! But it truly is an honor and a privilege. When I teach these days it comes from such a genuine desire to serve that I can't imagine anything else motivating me. If anything outside of this idea does move me, it's so that people will know what Project Yoga Richmond is all about (though occasionally, like today, in my haste to get class underway I will forget to talk about it) so that we can achieve our goals...


Anyway, my life these days seems to be all about living from that place inside myself that is just dying to get out. Being the person I was meant to be... Paige Elenson, founder of Africa Yoga Project, talks about the moment she was visiting Kenya and jumped out of her comfort zone to practice yoga with some native Kenyans she'd never met... and that 'jumping out' led her to meet herself head-on. My life has come full circle lately to the realization that for me to meet myself head-on, too, I must also let the door swing wide open, step outside my confines, and greet the person I see there on the other side with open heart and open arms. At the same time, greet the world with that same open-wide heart. It's truly the only way!


The top photo is from today; the second photo is our students from the Museum event, in Savasana.









Thursday, March 3, 2011

Lately

It's been a busy few weeks.

There's been so much to do for PYR: working on our mission statement and values and goals, coordinating teacher workshops and community service work (we have our first official community teaching gig!), lining up everything for us to file for 501 c(3) [non-profit] status; all the while teaching all my regular classes, settling my grandmother's estate, teacher training, trying to be a good, patient and mindful wife and doggie mom; and taking care of myself physically. I have found pranayama to be my biggest ally in remaining grounded and feeling centered and focused. Whenever I catch myself getting overwhelmed, I just sit or stand a little taller, align my spine, soften my gaze (or close eyes if possible), and take long, slow breaths, holding at the end of each inhale and exhale. It only takes a minute, and I always feel better immediately. It's not always easy to find time to meditate or practice, but pranayama always fits in.

I also have some exciting news-- I am now an ambassador for lululemon athletica here in Richmond. What this means is that I have been chosen to keep doing what I am doing but do even more of it, represent the fantastic brand that is lululemon, and be a helpful role model to those in the community. I was completely surprised when I went to the showroom (summoned by Val, the fantastic manager) and found my name written in giant letters on their chalkboard with my partner Jay standing there beaming. It was pretty cool. There is a new store opening in Short Pump in May and each of the 10 ambassadors chosen will have a large photograph on the wall in the store. My outdoor photo shoot is next week, so of course that means eating, hydrating, practicing and getting good rest. Nothing like a little low-grade vanity to kick the healthy lifestyle back into gear!

Last weekend I was in South Carolina with Rolf Gates again (I had a missed weekend to make up). The weekend was titled "Embodying the Light: Vinyasa Intensive." Rolf started with an hour long talk on aligning our values and our actions as sadhana (spiritual path or quest). He said yoga teaches us to bear witness to our habitual patterns of suffering and not let them rule our lives any longer. Contentment comes with acceptance of our circumstances as they are. We stick to this path by being rooted in the higher good and being willing to change and to let go of the person we once were, when that role no longer serves our purpose for higher good.

He spoke about how alignment in a yoga posture creates new opportunities. If I am fearful for example in ardha chandrasana (half moon) that I might fall while balancing on one leg, if I root my supporting leg and pull the lifted leg into alignment, there's much greater freedom in the posture because I feel safer and can reach more fully through the arms and head-- and even, on a great day, catch my back heel and work the posture into more of a backbend-- ardha chandra chapasana. When I'm that focused, that grounded in purpose, and that willing to explore and change, my heart opens so wide that the possibilities seem endless. It's like that in life. If I know what I believe in and remain rooted in what I am all about, my possibilities for expression of that intention feel limitless.

What a beautiful lesson!

Oh, and there were these raw chocolate truffles -- maybe it was my blissful practice or maybe it was these that were making me feel so happy all weekend :)

While I was traveling I also had the opportunity to visit a beautiful studio in Hilton Head, SC called JivaYoga. My friend Susan and I went there for two classes, Slow Flow/Deep Stretch with Jean and Dynamic Flow with Vicki and they were both fantastic.

In my next blog, if I remember, I will talk about how acupuncture is changing my life. :)